Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Anniversary greetings

Well today is Bryan and my 8th anniversary. Today went pretty well. I was a little apprehensive about it, but I didn't have any major meltdowns. I did have a couple of family members call and send cards to see how I was doing and let me know that they were thinking of me. I didn't really want a big fuss over today because I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate that everyone is thinking of me and keeping us in their prayers, but I really don't want the pity. I very rarely feel sorry for myself anymore. I have come to accept that this card was dealt to me and my family and that's just the way it is. There are a lot more people out there that have it much worse than I do.

I had the most selfless person I know take care of me today. My best friend Becky took us to the zoo and then she found a babysitter for me and she and her husband, James, took me out to dinner at Outback. It was one of Bryan's favorite places to go out and eat. As the waitress was bringing our dessert out, I saw a man behind her carrying a huge bouquet of red roses. I thought "Oh how sweet, someone is getting flowers!" Little did I know that the roses were for me! They got me a beautiful arrangement of 2 dozen red roses and this small white flower that looked like lace. Becky signed the card like it was from Bryan and told me that ever since he died, she had the feeling that he wanted to give me flowers on our anniversary. I can't believe the great friends I have been blessed with.

I have Bryan's picture from our wedding up by the computer and I swear his expression changes when I need him to understand me or make me laugh. Right now he is smiling that smile that says "I didn't get you anything, I don't know what you're talking about!" Well Bry, you did get me something and you can't deny it anymore. You made sure that my friends remembered us on our anniversary and the happiness we shared and not that I was alone.

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Jericho this is for you

So wow I can't believe it's been like 4 months since I wrote on this. And I was trying so hard to keep up with things. So let's see...what have I been up to in the last 4 months.

We went to Tucson in June to visit my mom and dad. The kids first trip on an airplane went really well actually. Shannyn fell asleep on the way down and on the way back. I actually had to wake her up when we landed. Leo was a little squirmy but I just kept feeding him Cheerios and fruit snacks and he was fine. I think they had a really good time. My cousin and her family came out from Virginia so it was like a mini family reunion. We got to go swimming a couple of times and Leo absolutely loved it! He accidentally put his face in the water one time and we all laughed at him so much that he kept on doing it. Shannyn even got the hang of it and was floating around the pool with her arms hooked over one of those noodle things. I am so looking forward to visiting again...only not in June.

I moved out of jewelry at work and back into the office. I do like it better but I am still having some problems convincing them that I can't work a whole lot of weekends. The lady I worked with before in the office moved to Louisiana and the new HR manager seems to want me to do all of the work. Oh well, it's a job right?

So I am still planning on going back to school in the fall but now it's looking like I may be going to the University of Northern Colorado to get my nursing degree. It's not my ideal career path, but it would open up a lot of different opportunities in the future. I was going to get my Surgical Tech degree from the community college, but they have a 3 year wait list and I don't really feel like waiting that long to get back into school.

Oh I almost forgot! I have a new site that you can go to to see pictures of us now! My cousin's husband set me up with a smugmug account. It's like a blog but I can post pictures on there for people to see. Don't go now because it's not quite ready yet, but the address is www.rogerskids.smugmug.com. The address will probably change but I will keep you all posted.

Speaking of the kids, they are doing really good. Shannyn is almost completely potty trained now. She still needs some reminding when she is busy playing but other than that, she is doing really well. Leo is walking and running all over the place. He makes sure I get my exercise. He has about a 5 word vocabulary but still only says "ma ma" when he is upset. He is getting really good at voicing his disgust when Shannyn or I take something he shouldn't have.

I currently am keeping very busy, not only with kids and work, but I have been helping a couple of friends with wedding stuff. I love to do anything crafty and this is helping out friends as well. I also have been very busy in my yard trying to plant flowers and keep them alive. It's kinda hard when the weather is in the upper 90's every day. Oh well, hopefully they will all make it!

I had to give up one of my dogs to the humane society a few weeks ago. To make a long story short, I had a run-in with a neighbor and it was kind of the last straw. I had been trying to find a home for Jack for 4 or 5 months now but I wasn't able to find anyone who would take him. I gave him up and he was adopted after only about a week and a half of being at the shelter. I was just not able to give him the attention and time he needed. We still have Sampson and will have him until he is old and gray. He was Bryan's dog and he reminds me so much of him. He is also very protective of me and the kids and I like having him around for that reason too. He is such a big lovable puppy!

Well I hope all of you out there in cyber space are doing well. Once again, this is the part where I say that I will try to keep up on things....we'll just have to see!
God Bless!

Monday, March 12, 2007

Update

Okay. At the request of many family members and friends, I am finally sending out an update. Sorry it's been so long. I guess I have been busy. So let's see....what's new.....

Shannyn is finally getting the hang of the potty training thing (YES!!). We finally just put her in training pants and made her go to the bathroom every 30 minutes. She goes about every 2-3 hours now. I am so proud of her and I am looking forward to less expense on diapers. I can't believe it, but she is going to be 4 on the 23rd!!! She is growing up so fast! She will be in kindergarten next year!

Leo is getting so big too. He will be 1 on the 19th and is almost walking. If I hold on to his hands, he practically runs across the room. Crawling is still his favorite mode of transportation since he can move faster. He is also starting to say a few words. He says "ma ma" and my dad swears he said "gampa" the other day. I'm not quite sure I heard it but he does mimic sounds and syllables.

I bought a new car last week. I traded in the Explorer (or Exploder as Bryan used to call it) and got a 2006 Ford Freestyle. I love it! It seats six, still looks sporty and has some good get-up-and-go. And my favorite thing about it? It's green! I will try to post some pictures later.

I am having the kids' pictures taken at work (Sears) on Friday and I am having their birthday party this Saturday so hopefully I can get some pictures posted soon. As for me, I think it's bed time for now. Good night to all and God Bless!

Tuesday, January 2, 2007

Merry Christmas and all that jazz

Merry Christmas everyone! And a Happy New Year to boot! We had a pretty good one. The kids got so many new toys that I am preparing to give away most of their old ones. Shannyn was so excited to open all of her presents and Leo was content to eat the bows and wrapping paper. I will get pictures up when I get them downloaded to my computer.

I managed to muddle through the holidays with pretty good spirits. I have been down a little the past few days. I think it's because the new year is supposed to be a chance for each of us to have a fresh start at life and I don't really want one right now. Sure I am looking forward to doing new things but I don't want time to pass too quickly right now. I miss Bryan so much and I don't want to cheapen the time I had with him by feeling like time is moving along. I think part of me wants to be stuck in the past. I am making new plans, however. I applied to Aims Community College last week for the fall 2007 semester. I want to finish my radiology degree that I started back in Wyoming.

We all got over the stomach crappiness that we had a few weeks ago but now we are all fighting colds. Shannyn has a double ear infection, I am getting over a pretty stuffy nose, and I think Leo's runny nose and cough are due to teething. Bryan's mom and dad came to visit last week and ended up with a 24 hour stomach bug while they were here. Of course it had to happen the day that Shannyn came down with her ear infections and the day that I got a really bad sore throat. So I had a house of 5 sick people last week. We all started getting better the next day luckily and were still able to have a lot of fun.

Well no more snow for the time being. We got another 3 inches last Friday but I guess that's winter in Colorado. I just hope we don't get another blizzard that buries everything again. I don't think my Christmas decorations in my yard are coming out until sometime next summer.

I will try to post more regularly in the future. The holidays were pretty busy around here but that's a good thing. It keeps me from sitting still for too long and feeling sorry for myself. That's the last thing Bryan would have wanted. I wish all of you peace and love and many, many blessings for the new year.