A Rough Day

I feel bad posting this before I post anything about my brother's wedding (it was great by the way and I will be posting some photos when I get them) but I just need to get this off my chest tonight.

Today was a really rough day for me. I found out this morning that Caleb's sister and brother-in-law died this past week. They were in their cabin near Laramie and died from carbon monoxide poisoning from the heater in the cabin. They were there with their 2 kids age 5 years and 9 months. The 5 year old took care of the baby for 2-3 days before anyone came to the cabin and found them. She was feeding the baby applesauce and bananas and basically keeping them both alive until someone came by the cabin to check the heater and found the parents dead in the bedroom. The coroner figures that they died in their sleep on Monday. The kids were treated for dehydration at the hospital but are in perfect health otherwise. The Lord was definitely looking out for those kids and I know that that is the only reason they are still alive and well.

All this news came on the day before the one year anniversary of my best friend, Marcy, losing her mom to cancer and 3 weeks before the 2 year anniversary of losing Bryan. Needless to say, I am beginning to really dislike this time of year and it's usually my favorite. I called both Caleb and Marcy today and cried over the phone with both of them. I was still having a hard time keeping it together 2 minutes before I had to work on a client at the school. I'm so glad that I went into massage therapy because after my first client today, I felt so much better and was able to make it through the rest of the afternoon. I really feel like it's not only therapeutic to work on people but it is therapeutic to me as well knowing that I can make someone feel better.

I kinda feel like locking the house this weekend and staying in my bedroom but I can't let myself do that. I feel a slump coming on and I refuse to let it get the best of me. Luckily I have a craft day planned at church tomorrow morning and will probably try to get out of the house again tomorrow evening. Sometimes I get so mad at myself when I can't seem to get control but I know that it's okay to get down every once in a while. I just have to remember to keep my head up and looking forward and rely on my family, friends and faith to get me through the rough patches